For My Dearest: an open letter for suicide prevention day

by dantewilde

For my dearest,

Today is Suicide Prevention day, it’s the day where we’ll wear orange and may even write “love” on our arms. It’s the one day of the year where suicide is at the forefront of the minds of the masses. One day, every year. On today, we show our support for people like you, that are struggling with tendencies, hopelessness, the suicide attempts.

There’s one thing that’s particularly important about today.

Amongst all the attention, the sea of orange, the banners and the community events.

The most important thing, is that you don’t feel forgotten.

We only have one day for suicide prevention, but the truth is, it’s something that people just like you deal with every day. Some people deal with it every second day and others every now again. We’re all the same, we’re all struggling to keep our heads above the water and we’re doing what ever we can to stay afloat.

You’re doing your best, and I can see that and I’m so proud of you. I know it doesn’t always work out like you’d planned, sometimes you relapse and cut again, or smoke that cigarette, or take the drugs. But that’s okay. We all fall off the wagon sometimes. What matters most, is that you’re still here, you’re still fighting. The cuts will heal and they’ll scar and they’ll fade. Above all else, they’ll remind you that you made it through the night. That, despite your pain and your mistakes, you are strong, you are beautiful, you are brilliant. Whether you read this tonight, or tomorrow, or the one after, there is something that no one can take away from you. There will always be a new day. You can put down the razor or the bottle or the pills and you can start again tomorrow.

I know you can do it, you’ve done it before and you’ve thought about it time and time again. I know you have, I know that you have the strength to put them down and walk away.

I believe in you.

today may not be all that different for you, but it’s another day. It’s a day that you’ve gifted yourself. Another chance to smile, to enjoy the sun, the rain, the clouds, the animals.

Living is like writing a book, you place one word in front of the other and you keep going. When it’s hard, it’s horrendous, but when it’s good, it’s amazing. Keep placing one day before the last. Look down every now and again and enjoy the beauty around us, look toward the horizon if ever you find yourself dark and lost and keep moving forward.

Remember, pain is not permanent. The pain that you feel now will pass, just as the pain that’s come before it has past. It will give way to days where living hurts a little bit less and gradually, it will give way to days where you don’t hurt at all.

You can do this.

Even after suicide prevention day has past, you can keep fighting and keep breathing, and keep dreaming. Find something you love, find something you’re good at, do it, be great at it, and above all else, realise this;

It’s not our mistakes that define us, it’s how we grow and learn from those mistakes that makes us who we are.

You are always in my thoughts, I’m proud of you.

I love you.